fbpx
Tuesday, June 2, 2020

Being a Late Bloomer

Enjoying this article?

You'll love our roundtable.


By submitting this form, you are consenting to receive marketing emails from: Jewish Journal, 3250 Wilshire Boulevard, Los Angeles, CA, 90010, http://www.jewishjournal.com. You can revoke your consent to receive emails at any time by using the SafeUnsubscribe® link, found at the bottom of every email. Emails are serviced by Constant Contact

When we come into this world we carry genes and the Divine spark. The rest comes from parental role modeling, social/environmental/cultural/religious influences, opportunity (or lack thereof) and choices along the way.

At 72 I find myself in places I never expected. Genetically I’ve been gifted with certain gifts – physically with a propensity to stay pretty healthy, trim and strong, emotionally – inquisitive, creative, somewhat of an introvert but resilient, and spiritually, open, connected and hopeful.

Yet over my lifetime, as a child of the 50s and 60s, sexism and religious narrowness often shaped my future and limited my vision of possibility as a Jewish woman. My sixth grade teacher, a tall strong male, humiliated me in public and fed into an insecure female self-image, my Jewish teachers and synagogue environment sent clear messages that my voice was not desired nor would it be appropriate, and my parents, immigrants, recovering from their traumatic Holocaust experience, protected and limited my comfort expressing myself so I learned early on to keep a low profile, all this in the context of a society and culture that limited woman’s participation, controlled by men with power. Potential scratched and submerged, withdrawn and insecure, I let go of any possibility of attending college and chose to become a secretary, an appropriate role and job for someone eager to please and to feel useful.

So how have I gotten here, 72, with both, undergraduate and graduate studies, Phi Bet Kappa, and two Master’s degrees? It’s somewhat of a mystery to me and yet, here I am, a graduate of Interior Design Program at UCLA, and ordained as both Cantor and Rabbi from AJRCA.

Too complicated and lengthy for this venue, I wrote a memoir so I could better understand the journey. One day I hope it will be published. I do know that there are threads that make transformation possible for all of us – angels amongst us, the Divine flow, and hidden opportunities often in plain sight. Being a late bloomer I bring years of experience and wisdom that I have accrued even in my most low and painful moments. Perhaps despite or because of the darkness, an overwhelming clarity has shined forth.

As Isaiah teaches, “Those who dwelled in the land of the shadow of death, upon them has the light shined.” Or even Psalms, “…the night would become as light around me.”

Blooming later in life affirms the incredible statement from our tradition we chant every Shabbat, “…they shall bear fruit even in old age.” It is pretty astounding that we can continue to thrive, produce, create, and even soar in ‘older’ age. Many important people, most particularly my husband Steve, and surprising moments have nurtured this possibility and I am so grateful to say, ‘it is never too late’ to seek your passion and follow your dreams. The opportunity to express my gifts, and have them received by others, is so glorious I am often beyond words. It is a blessing; 

Baruch Atah Adonai, Eloheynu Melech HaOlam. 

Blessed are You, Adonai, our G-d, ruler of the Universe and mysterious hiddenness, Who shines light in unexpected places.

Rabbi and Cantor Eva RobbinsN’vay Shalom, Read more from Eva here. 

Enjoyed this article?

You'll love our roundtable.


By submitting this form, you are consenting to receive marketing emails from: Jewish Journal, 3250 Wilshire Boulevard, Los Angeles, CA, 90010, http://www.jewishjournal.com. You can revoke your consent to receive emails at any time by using the SafeUnsubscribe® link, found at the bottom of every email. Emails are serviced by Constant Contact

Latest Articles

First, We Shun Evil

“Shun evil and do good” the Psalmist charges (Psalms 34:14). OK, we say, but why is that a two-step process? Why not just “do...

Hundreds of Israelis Protest in Solidarity with George Floyd at U.S. Embassy in Tel Aviv

Israelis headed to United States Embassy in Tel Aviv on the evening June 2 (9 a.m. Pacific Time) to show their solidarity over the...

Prime Minister’s Office Employee Who Has the Coronavirus May Have Had Contact With Netanyahu

JERUSALEM (JTA) — An employee in the Prime Minister’s Office has tested positive for COVID-19, which could send Benjamin Netanyahu into self-quarantine for the...

LAPD Chief Apologizes For Saying George Floyd’s Death Was on Looters’ Hands

Los Angeles Police Chief Michel Moore came under fire for claiming that the death of George Floyd was on the hands of those “capitalizing”...

Steven Lowenstein, Distinguished Jewish Historian and National Book Award Winner, Dies at 75

Steven Lowenstein, a distinguished Jewish historian and accomplished social worker died on May 31, the 8th day of Sivan at the age of 75. Born...

We Must Sweep Away the Racism Along with the Broken Glass

Jews know that broken glass always means more than one thing.

Shakshuka: The Breakfast of Kings

The bright azure and gentle waves of the Mediterranean beckon from beyond the floor-to-ceiling windows but there is a more tempting challenge from where...

ADL Report Highlights Extremist Groups Participating in George Floyd Demonstrations

On June 1, the Anti-Defamation League (ADL) released a report highlighting the various extremist groups infiltrating the protests and commenting on them against the...

Jews Are Fasting to Honor George Floyd

"There will be no point in the day that I will not be thinking about George Floyd, Antwon Rose Jr., and my black friends and neighbors."

Downtown L.A. Jewish-Owned Bike Store Looted

Yehuda Masjedi, who lives in Pico-Robertson, turned off his phone in the run-up to the Shavuot holiday on May 28. When Shabbat ended, he...

Culture

Steven Lowenstein, Distinguished Jewish Historian and National Book Award Winner, Dies at 75

Steven Lowenstein, a distinguished Jewish historian and accomplished social worker died on May 31, the 8th day of Sivan at the age of 75. Born...

Shakshuka: The Breakfast of Kings

The bright azure and gentle waves of the Mediterranean beckon from beyond the floor-to-ceiling windows but there is a more tempting challenge from where...

My Shabbat of Shattered Glass

On Shabbat morning May 30, my father, a proud Jew, woke up to see six missed calls telling him his store was looted.

Singer Dua Lipa Shares Instagram Post Calling the Israeli Gov’t Fake Jews

British singer Dua Lipa shared a now deleted Instagram post on May 31 calling Israeli government officials fake Jews and accusing the United States...

When A Jewish Girl Enters a Church

Jesus' looming, bloody statues, paintings and depictions of him on the crucifix, dripping blood from the places where the nails went in always scared me.

Latest Articles
Latest

First, We Shun Evil

“Shun evil and do good” the Psalmist charges (Psalms 34:14). OK, we say, but why is that a two-step process? Why not just “do...

Hundreds of Israelis Protest in Solidarity with George Floyd at U.S. Embassy in Tel Aviv

Israelis headed to United States Embassy in Tel Aviv on the evening June 2 (9 a.m. Pacific Time) to show their solidarity over the...

Prime Minister’s Office Employee Who Has the Coronavirus May Have Had Contact With Netanyahu

JERUSALEM (JTA) — An employee in the Prime Minister’s Office has tested positive for COVID-19, which could send Benjamin Netanyahu into self-quarantine for the...

LAPD Chief Apologizes For Saying George Floyd’s Death Was on Looters’ Hands

Los Angeles Police Chief Michel Moore came under fire for claiming that the death of George Floyd was on the hands of those “capitalizing”...

Steven Lowenstein, Distinguished Jewish Historian and National Book Award Winner, Dies at 75

Steven Lowenstein, a distinguished Jewish historian and accomplished social worker died on May 31, the 8th day of Sivan at the age of 75. Born...

Hollywood

Harvey Weinstein Accused of Sexual Assault by 4 More Women, Including Minor in New York Lawsuit

A new lawsuit filed against Harvey Weinstein in New York city accuses the former film producer of raping four women, including one who was...

Lil Dicky Is the Larry David of Rap in His Show ‘Dave’

If you haven’t heard of the comic rapper Lil Dicky, and you are at least tangentially interested in rap or comedy, you should familiarize...


‘Love & Stuff’ Sees Life, Death and Motherhood Through a Jewish Lens

How do you cope with both the death of a parent and the artifacts she left behind, while preparing to become a mother yourself...

Podcasts

Pandemic Times Episode 49: Civil Unrest Takes Over the Pandemic News

New David Suissa Podcast Every Morning. Reflections on the violent protests that have swept the nation in the wake of another police killing. How do we...

Never Have We Ever Applauded Mandy Patinkin’s Twitter and Criticized Seinfeld

Erin and Esther are still wading through the content rapids, wearing their masks and pickling in their preferences. From adoring Mandy Patinkin's Twitter videos...

More news and opinions than at a Shabbat dinner, right in your inbox.


By submitting this form, you are consenting to receive marketing emails from: Jewish Journal, 3250 Wilshire Boulevard, Los Angeles, CA, 90010, http://www.jewishjournal.com. You can revoke your consent to receive emails at any time by using the SafeUnsubscribe® link, found at the bottom of every email. Emails are serviced by Constant Contact

x